Charlie

This Memorial Is Decicated To My Charlie, One Hell Of A Fighter Thank you for stopping by to read his ( our ) strory : This memorial is dedicated to my Charlie kitty, who died 2-23-09 Charlie was just 2 years old when he died, and in those 2 years, I formed a bond like a mother and child. He was my best friend,and lil buddy. It's just been 6 months since he crossed the bridge. Charlie was born in April 2007, a normal kitten till about 6 mos. Then I started to notice nasal discharge, and took him to the vet. URI was what I was told, so on antibiotics he went, no improvement. This is when the rollercoaster started, many antibiotics, and 4 different vets we saw. Still nothing was working. My baby had many tests, labs, inhalation treatments, cultures etc...lots of $$ Still nothing was helping. Then in July 08, he was real lathargic, breathing fast, scared me to death, so off to #4 vet we went, after seeing the other 3, this vet seemed to care, was sincere about trying to find out what was wrong.. Well, seems my Charlie had anemia, from fleas...(vets 1,2,3 told me I couldnt treat him while his immune system was down due to URI, I again, believed them !) So, a blood transfusion was done, along with IV fluids...he did well with procedure..but had to go in every week for Epogin shots to help build his blood up...he did well for a while, then his numbers dropped again, and more blood was needed, he got a total of 3 transfusions. Things were better with that part of his health, then we focused again on what was with the nasal discharge... his culture came back positive for beta strep and E-coli...so more antibiotocs and steroids now. My poor baby has been through so much in his short little life. But I was determined to try and find out what was wrong..all tests came back negative for feline diseases...even my vet was stumped. Charlie had a good Christmas 08, but after the new year, he went down hill...many vet visits again, and more antibiotics, and in Jan 09, we found out the hard way he was allergic to pennicillian, nearly killed him, but he pulled through then. Then in Feb, I noticed what I thought was " difficulty breathing" so off to vet again... My vet said lungs and heart ok, no dyspnea noted. I took him in many more times to make sure he was not in distress, which vet said he was not. On Feb 23, back we went to vet, and it was on this day vet said yes, resp. distress and it was time.I left him at vets to have time with myself to make the hardest decision of my life, I cried all day long, but by 5pm, I knew I had to go to vets and make the decision. And it was at 5:35 pm, I let my Charlie go. This has been the hardest time of my life, losing my cat, I feel a part of me has died with him..he now sits in my home in his urn, with his photo and lock of hair. I turned 50, 8-27-09...its been alittle over 6 months since he died, and my pain is still so fresh, I miss him like a mother who lost a child, I am lost without him..he left his paw prints all over my heart. When will the pain lessen?? My life must go on, I have a job, husband and kids,all grown now,but I just cant seem to let go. Why do I feel this way still, after 6 months, i just cant seem to "get over it" I dont cry every day anymore, but sometimes when I look at his pic, or hear his song, Josh Grobans "To where you are", the tears still fall... My daughter had a locket made for me for my Bday, on it is "Charlie" "Always and forever" 2-23-09, I wear it every day, to keep him close to me..... am I crazy to feel this way about a cat? Thank you for reading our story it does do me good to "talk" about him....God Bless I also must add this PS...when I obtained his medical records, in it was stated that my cat was not in distress...so I will wonder the rest of my life...did I listen to his vet, and let him go for the wrong reason? Wait for me Charlie, we'll be together one day again !! Love you !

 This is for you, my "love buckie" Charlie, from the bottom of my heart, the hole you left, when you left this world ! Always loved, sadly missed.

  I Loved You Best
 So this is where we part, My Friend,
 and you'll run on, around the bend,
 gone from sight, but not from mind,
 new pleasures there you'll surely find.

 I will go on, I'll find the strength,
 life measures quality, not its length.
One long embrace before you leave,
 share one last look, before I grieve.
 
There are others, that much is true,
 but they be they, and they aren't you.
And I, fair, impartial, or so I thought,
 will remember well all you've taught.
 
Your place I'll hold, you will be missed,
 the fur I stroked, the nose I kissed.
 And as you journey to your final rest,
 take with you this...I loved you best.
 God knows....I miss you !!

 

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This site was created by
Dawn
03/31/2009

Burn bright for my sweet Charlie
Posted by Dawn Zabawa on 03/31/2009
2 months now, my baby..GOD I miss you..taken from me too soon, trusting in your vet, who was tired of treating you, and told me it "was time", and I believed him...forgive me Charlie, and wait for me at the bridge ! I love you, Mama (Dawn)
Posted by Mama on 04/21/2009
9 weeks now since you were taken from us, and I miss you so much still. I hope you are happy and playing at the Bridge..wait for me sweet Charlie !! May the Lord comfort you and hold you in his arms !! 4-27-09
Posted by Mama Dawn on 04/27/2009
Oh my dear Charlie, your life was too short because of that stupid vet, but yet, your life has left profound impact in everyone's heart, especially in your Mama Dawn's heart ... We all miss you little angel -- Oh, can't hold my tears--flowing like a river.. your mom is right, I have a box of tissue by my side...you're too sweet to be forgotten, baby Charlie !
Posted by Auntie Irene on 04/27/2009
May you rest in peace sweet Charlie. We all miss you. May you find comfort there.
Posted by Granny Nanny on 04/27/2009
RIP sweet boy Charlie. You left paw prints on all our hearts,you are sorely missed,and now an angel for sure.xxxxx
Posted by che on 04/28/2009
Sweet Charlie,

You know Meowmy Dawn is very very sad for you, sweet boy. We also miss you very much in the site, but I'm sure you are in good company there in the Bridge with mine & others until Meowmy arrives.
Lots of love for you all up there, Maya
Posted by Maya on 04/28/2009
Thank you Amie for your kind words, and stopping by to read our story. One thing I must add is: Charlie did not suffer, he had a snotty nose, that was his only symptom, after 4 different vets, tests, cultures, nothing could "cure" him. It was the vet that said he was in resp. distress, and that alone is what I made my decision on, and his medical records state something totally different. So, my decision was based on deciept. This is the ONLY reason my baby isnt here, laying on my bed right now..His vet was tired of treating him, and I now ask...How he can lay his head down and sleep at night?? His vet was uncaring, and I will NEVER go back there again. Thank you Amie for his candle ! Dawn
Posted by Mama Dawn on 04/29/2009
R.I.P Charlie. We will miss u so much. we think about u everyday. be safe and be good. U have touched everyones heart. we love u so much. xoxoxoxo
Posted by Howard & Stephanie Zabawa on 04/30/2009
10 weeks today Charlie since you left us, the pain still great, but easing alittle bit now. Always know, you will be in my thoughts, and you took a piece of me when you went to the bridge. You will forever be in my heart ! I'll love you for eternity !
Posted by Mama Dawn on 05/04/2009
Oh God Charlie, almost 11 weeks now, and the pain is still here, I hurt so bad for you, and I miss you very much !Hear me boy, wait for mama at the bridge, we will be reunited one day, I long to hold you in my arms again, my baby boy ! Love for eternity ! Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 05/07/2009
For my Charlie, 12 weeks now since you left my loving arms, and I miss you still, so much ! No one here can fill the void you left in my heart, I will carry this till we meet again, my sweet boy !! Mama loves you very much ! Rest in peace.
Posted by Dawn on 05/11/2009
3 months that you have now been gone from me, tho the pain has lessened, I still miss you very much, and think of you every day! I'll always love you Charlie, and dont you ever forget that ! Wait for me at the Bridge, I'll be there one day, and cant wait for you to jump in my arms again ! Rest my baby !! Kisses from mama
Posted by Dawn on 05/20/2009
Charlie was such a special friend
You bonded in many ways
Lots of special things were done
Just to earn your praise
Sharing love and companionship
Brought smiles upon your face
And now your beloved Charlie has gone
Fond memories have taken his place.
Love Che.xxxxx
Posted by che on 05/21/2009
Thank you Che , what you said.....so true ! Memories yes, but I still miss him soooo much ! He will forever live on in my heart and my mind ! God, after 3 months, the pain is still here, he will never be replaced. Bless you, Che ! Hugs from me
Posted by Mama Dawn on 05/21/2009
Beautiful new angel Charlie. I know the true love shared between you and your loving Mama and my heart breaks for her sadness as I know how much she misses you.
Posted by Taag & Family on 05/24/2009
14 weeks my sweet baby, and not a day goes by that you dont cross my mind. I miss you dearly, I can now talk about you without crying, but still cant look at your pic for more than 1 minute without crying. Find comfort in Gods arms, my baby boy. Mama loves you so much ! Kisses for you
Posted by Dawn on 05/26/2009
Hello honey, today marks 14 weeks since you left me, and oh God, how I miss you.Wait for me Charlie, I'll meet you again, one day. I love you with every beat of my heart. I hope you are running free, and palying with Elsie and Buster, who came to be with you a week ago. Forever my love, Charlie, my heart is empty without you. See you...Mama Dawn
Posted by Mama Dawn on 06/08/2009
Good morning my sweet Charlie ! Thank you for coming to me in my "dream" Monday morning, it was very nice "seeing" you and letting me know you are ok..and you know I love you w/every beat of my heart !! XXOO
Posted by Mama on 06/12/2009
Hello my sweet Charlie Boy, its now been 15 weeks since you went to the bridge. I miss you sooo much honey, as I write this to you, tears flow still. Time might heal my wounded heart, but you will NEVER be forgotton, for you are the 4 legged love of my life ! Always know that ! Heres a kiss and head butt from me !! XXOO
Posted by Mama Dawn on 06/15/2009
Good morning sweet baby boy, 17 weeks now since you crossed, and I miss you still, and love you more. Till we meet again..head butts and purs to you ! XXOO
Posted by Mama Dawn on 06/29/2009
Dedicated to Charlie :

When I'm alone I dream of the horizon and words fail me.
There is no light in a room where there is no sun
and there is no sun if you're not here with me, with me.
From every window unfurls my heart the heart that you have won.
Into me you've poured the light,
the light that you found by the side of the road.
Time to say goodbye.
Places that I've never seen or experienced with you.
Now I shall, I'll sail with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more,
it's time to say goodbye.

When you're far away I dream of the horizon and words fail me.
And of course I know that you're with me, with me.
You, my moon, you are with me.
My sun, you're here with me with me, with me, with me.
Time to say goodbye.
Places that I've never seen or experienced with you.
Now I shall, I'll sail with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more...
Posted by Mama Dawn on 07/12/2009
This Thursday, 7-23-09 marks 5 months that you have been gone,and not a day goes by that I dont think of you.Each time I hear Josh Groban sing "To where you are" I still cry, for that is your song..I miss and love you very much,my Charlie boy..see ya at the bridge.. Love,Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 07/16/2009
Hello my sweet baby boy, Charlie. Today 7-23-09 marks 5 months since you left this world.I have been thinking about you alot these past few weeks.You are heavy on my mind,and I miss you so much ! Still to this day, I regret my decision, based on what your vet said, I wish I'd got a second opinion, but this is all water under the bridge..but know you are and were loved VERY much,and I miss you EVERY day !! Love your Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 07/23/2009
2 more weeks have passed, and I miss you still...I turn 50 on the 27th this month, the girls are throwing me a party, and guess what Chelsea got me? She got me a beautiful locket with your name on the front, and pics inside...that way I wear you close to my heart every day ! You will NEVER be forgottun, my sweet baby boy, Charlie !! I'll love you till the day I die ..
Love Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 08/05/2009
I light this candle for you my Love Buckie ! I miss you still soooooo very much. I feel I will never really be over you. You left your paw prints all over my heart, that time just cant heal..I love you lil man !!
Posted by Dawn on 08/16/2009
To where you are : 6 months Charlie boy since you crossed, and I miss you still very much. Your paw prints cover my heart !! Love you forever.
Posted by Mama Dawn on 08/23/2009
To where you are : 6 months Charlie boy since you crossed, and I miss you still very much. Your paw prints cover my heart !! Love you forever.
Posted by Mama Dawn on 08/23/2009
Hi Charlie boy..Im 50 years old today, I wish you were here with me today to share it with me.Its been 6 mos since you crossed,and I still cry for you baby boy. Days are sometimes still very sad for me, as I miss you dearly. Saturday night my girls are throwing me a big party, and Im gonna sing "To where you are " to you..I'll always love you Charlie. You are my love !
Posted by Mama Dawn on 08/27/2009
Hi Charlie boy..Im 50 years old today, I wish you were here with me today to share it with me.Its been 6 mos since you crossed,and I still cry for you baby boy. Days are sometimes still very sad for me, as I miss you dearly. Saturday night my girls are throwing me a big party, and Im gonna sing "To where you are " to you..I'll always love you Charlie. You are my love !
Posted by Mama Dawn on 08/27/2009
To my Charlie Boy, almost 7 months now since youve been gone...I miss you still very much.Always know my baby boy that "You raised ME up" Showed me what unconditional love really is. You left a void in my heart that nothing can fill...till we are together again sweet boy, mama loves you ! XXOO
Posted by Mama Dawn on 09/11/2009
Hey my sweet boy...today marks 7 months that you have been gone, and Im still missing you horribly. Not 1 day goes by I dont think about you. You were and are still my "love buckie" of my life. Loved dearly by your mama..I always will love you, Charlie !
Posted by Mama Dawn on 09/24/2009
My sweet Charlie boy...almost 8 months since you crossed over...I still cry..am I crazy? We leave in 20 days on our cruise, the one I need so much to help me cope with loosing you..Im having such as hard time...still...I miss you lil buddy !! Mamas love buckie...wait for mama, we'll be together one day...Muah !! XXOO
Posted by Mama Dawn on 10/06/2009
Almost 9 months now, and I think of you daily..I miss you lil buddy. We went on our cruise, I took you with me, your picture, so you could be with me..you are always in my heart !!
I love you Charlie
Posted by Mama Dawn on 11/06/2009
My sweet Charlie Boy, in 5 days marks 9 months since you left me and this world. We went on our cruise a couple of weeks ago, and you went with me..I kissed your photo and took you up on deck to say a prayer for you. I love you lil buddy, you are always on my mind and in mt heart. One week from today is Thanksgiving, and next month is Christmas, this will be a hard holiday for me, as you were with me this time last year, and having some good health and energy..I think of you, my "love buckie" Mama misses you dearly !!
Posted by Mama Dawn on 11/18/2009
To my love buckie...to where ever you are, Merry Christmas my love. Look after Zana, who joined you12-9, show her all the good places to run and play. I LOVE YOU !
Posted by Mama Dawn on 12/13/2009
I'll always LOVE YOU !!!!
Posted by Mama Dawn on 02/02/2010
Charlie will never leave your side once you have a cat they are there forever even in passing so from the corner of your eye you will see your sweet Charlie with one paw up saying Hi mum I love you an I will alway keep you safe. =^..^=
Posted by quinton smith on 02/24/2010
Charlie will never leave your side once you have a cat they are there forever even in passing so from the corner of your eye you will see your sweet Charlie with one paw up saying Hi mum I love you an I will alway keep you safe. =^..^=
Posted by quinton smith on 02/24/2010
Feb 23 2010 marked your 1 year anniversary of your passing. It was a hard day for me,Charlie. I miss you so very much still. You forever live on in my heart and mind. I love you very much, my "love buckie" !! Love, Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 03/10/2010
Its now been nearly 14 mos since you left my loving arms...I miss you still, my sweet boy! We WILL be together again, one day !! I Love You Charlie Boy Kisses from Mama !!!!!!
Posted by Mama Dawn on 04/14/2010
MY sweet Love Buckie Charlie...tomorrow is Mothers Day, and you are not here...I miss you so very much, still, not a day goes by I dont think of you, and speak your name...I love you, my 4 legged son !! Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 05/08/2010
Hey, my sweet boy, its now been just over 15 mos since you went to the rainbow bridge.I listened to our song today, I cried...I sometimes still shed tears for you..I miss you terribly !! Your sweet lil nose, you used to rub on my cheek,and your ridng on my shoulder..I just miss you, my Love Buckie. I hope you are well, and happy where you are...Till we meet again...Love you, Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 06/04/2010
You are always on my mind, and forever in my heart ! I love and miss you Charlie Boy ! Mamas "Love Buckie" Kisses and hugs to you in kitty heaven !
Posted by Mama Dawn on 09/15/2010
22 days you'll have been gone 2 years from my loving arms ! 2-23-09 Mama misses you still, my sweet boy ! I love you Charlie !! =^..^=
Posted by Mama Dawn on 02/01/2011
In just 7 days, you will have been gone from my loving arms for 2 years..Mama misses you still, my love bucky !! Be happy at the Rainbow Bridge...Hugs and kisses
Posted by Mama Dawn on 02/16/2011
I light this candle to honor you, as today marks 2 years since your passing.You are alway on my mind,and forever in my heart, my sweet Charlie. I so hope you are happy and healthy wherever you are. I love you from the bottom of my heart. You left my loving arms to be by Gods side. Be happy ny baby boy. I love you !!
Posted by Your Mama Dawn on 02/23/2011
Rest in peace,dear angel,free and happy!Play with buddies there,free of pain and feel your mom's love forever!
Posted by C. on 02/23/2011
Hello my baby boy..mama misses you ! Every time I come to your page, I still cry for you, 2 years later, and I still miss you SO very much. I don't think I'll ever really get over you, my "love buckie". I hope all is well with you, and you and Zana, Daisy, Thunder, PorkChop, and Elsie May are all playing, and chasing butterflies...till we meet again...I LOVE YOU !! Mama
Posted by Mama Dawn on 04/19/2011