Charlie

This Memorial Is Decicated To My Charlie, One Hell Of A Fighter Thank you for stopping by to read his ( our ) strory : This memorial is dedicated to my Charlie kitty, who died 2-23-09 Charlie was just 2 years old when he died, and in those 2 years, I formed a bond like a mother and child. He was my best friend,and lil buddy. It's just been 6 months since he crossed the bridge. Charlie was born in April 2007, a normal kitten till about 6 mos. Then I started to notice nasal discharge, and took him to the vet. URI was what I was told, so on antibiotics he went, no improvement. This is when the rollercoaster started, many antibiotics, and 4 different vets we saw. Still nothing was working. My baby had many tests, labs, inhalation treatments, cultures etc...lots of $$ Still nothing was helping. Then in July 08, he was real lathargic, breathing fast, scared me to death, so off to #4 vet we went, after seeing the other 3, this vet seemed to care, was sincere about trying to find out what was wrong.. Well, seems my Charlie had anemia, from fleas...(vets 1,2,3 told me I couldnt treat him while his immune system was down due to URI, I again, believed them !) So, a blood transfusion was done, along with IV fluids...he did well with procedure..but had to go in every week for Epogin shots to help build his blood up...he did well for a while, then his numbers dropped again, and more blood was needed, he got a total of 3 transfusions. Things were better with that part of his health, then we focused again on what was with the nasal discharge... his culture came back positive for beta strep and E-coli...so more antibiotocs and steroids now. My poor baby has been through so much in his short little life. But I was determined to try and find out what was wrong..all tests came back negative for feline diseases...even my vet was stumped. Charlie had a good Christmas 08, but after the new year, he went down hill...many vet visits again, and more antibiotics, and in Jan 09, we found out the hard way he was allergic to pennicillian, nearly killed him, but he pulled through then. Then in Feb, I noticed what I thought was " difficulty breathing" so off to vet again... My vet said lungs and heart ok, no dyspnea noted. I took him in many more times to make sure he was not in distress, which vet said he was not. On Feb 23, back we went to vet, and it was on this day vet said yes, resp. distress and it was time.I left him at vets to have time with myself to make the hardest decision of my life, I cried all day long, but by 5pm, I knew I had to go to vets and make the decision. And it was at 5:35 pm, I let my Charlie go. This has been the hardest time of my life, losing my cat, I feel a part of me has died with him..he now sits in my home in his urn, with his photo and lock of hair. I turned 50, 8-27-09...its been alittle over 6 months since he died, and my pain is still so fresh, I miss him like a mother who lost a child, I am lost without him..he left his paw prints all over my heart. When will the pain lessen?? My life must go on, I have a job, husband and kids,all grown now,but I just cant seem to let go. Why do I feel this way still, after 6 months, i just cant seem to "get over it" I dont cry every day anymore, but sometimes when I look at his pic, or hear his song, Josh Grobans "To where you are", the tears still fall... My daughter had a locket made for me for my Bday, on it is "Charlie" "Always and forever" 2-23-09, I wear it every day, to keep him close to me..... am I crazy to feel this way about a cat? Thank you for reading our story it does do me good to "talk" about him....God Bless I also must add this PS...when I obtained his medical records, in it was stated that my cat was not in distress...so I will wonder the rest of my life...did I listen to his vet, and let him go for the wrong reason? Wait for me Charlie, we'll be together one day again !! Love you !

 This is for you, my "love buckie" Charlie, from the bottom of my heart, the hole you left, when you left this world ! Always loved, sadly missed.

  I Loved You Best
 So this is where we part, My Friend,
 and you'll run on, around the bend,
 gone from sight, but not from mind,
 new pleasures there you'll surely find.

 I will go on, I'll find the strength,
 life measures quality, not its length.
One long embrace before you leave,
 share one last look, before I grieve.
 
There are others, that much is true,
 but they be they, and they aren't you.
And I, fair, impartial, or so I thought,
 will remember well all you've taught.
 
Your place I'll hold, you will be missed,
 the fur I stroked, the nose I kissed.
 And as you journey to your final rest,
 take with you this...I loved you best.
 God knows....I miss you !!

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