Nvwati



April 1, 1997 - September 28, 2007

"I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you."



Nvwati was born on April 1, 1997, the second of five pups born to Miko, a timber wolf.
Miko came into my life two years earlier, gifted to me in the Will of an elderly woman who passed away.
I am American Indian and belong to the wolf clan. This grandmother knew of my love for wolves, so when she passed away she left Miko to me.
I had no idea Miko was capable of having pups! I thought by that age she would have either been spayed or sterile.
Miko met Timber, a black and white Siberian Husky and they fell in love. They would both cry for hours after their play dates together. I had to be out of town for a week and Miko went to spend that time with Timber and his human mom. When I returned home I was told they had mated.
Sixty three days to the day, five pups were born.Nvwati was the largest, and the second one to make his appearance. He was born butt first and I had to help him come out.
Two weeks later I was awakened one night to the sound of howling. Imagine my surprise when I went into the Solarium and found Miko howling at the full mooon with little Nvwati sitting beside her, his little head up high howling along!
As people came to decide which pup they wanted I would all but push Nvati into their hands but each time they would say "No". Being a blonde he didnt look as "wolfie" as the other pups did and so before long I was left with only two needing a home, Nvwati and his brother.After his mother Miko died suddenly, he wiggled his way into my heart and remained with me, my constant companion.
Nvwati loved to sing and would sing along with me whenever I took up my drum. He competed in and came in second in an International Pet Singing Competition. He was on several tv shows including Breakfast Television, Oprah Show, Erin Davis show, etc. Nvwati can be seen singing on his dogster site at www.dogster.com/dogs/83943 .
Over the next 10.5 years Nvwati brought me so many wonderful memories. Whether it was of him singing as I drummed, or the countless times his attitude would come through, he always brought me joy. He lived up to his name which is a Cherokee word for "Good Medicine". During times I was so ill I didnt know if I could go on any more he would be there for me , loving me and showing me that I had better not leave him!
Nvwati was so very gentle to all he met, but especially loving to homeless people. Its as though he seemed to sense they needed a little extra loving.
Time after time I told him how he better not die before me because I couldnt bear the loss. I told him this just the night before he passed away.
On Friday, Sept. 28, 2007 while out for our afternoon trip to the park, I noticed he was walking slowly. Jokingly I said, "Hey bubbs, you re slow today. Whats wrong? Are you an old man now?" Upon our return from the park he lay down at the doorway to my bedroom and let out a yelp. It was by far not the worst yelp I had heard from him over the years but his beautiful eyes told me soemthing was terribly wrong. I helped him to my bed and called the Animal Hospital. I was told to bring him right over.
Thinking it must have been something he ate, I put him on leash and began the 3 block scoot to the Animal hospital. Two blocks from home, my darling wobbled then sat down. He put his head down and died right there on the sidewalk, one block from our destination.
His autopsy showed he had Pericarditis, a large bag of fluid around his precious heart making it hard for it to beat. He died of a massive heart attack.
It feels as though my heart will explode from grief.


As I left the Animal Hospital, I sat outside on my scooter (wheelchair type thing) and looked up at the sky. On the one side of the street where I was, the sky was blue and sunny. Directly across the street the sky was black and it was raining. It was as though the heavens had opened to welcome my beloved Nvwati home.

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This site was created by
Amber
09/30/2007

My precious Bubbs. I light this candle today to help guide you to the Spirit World. Have a safe and speedy journey Nvwati. Mommy misses you so very very much!
Posted by Amber O'Hara on 10/01/2007
Wow!
What a beautiful and very special dog. God bless him.
Posted by Terry on 10/01/2007
Hey big brother! I miss you so much but I am doing my best to be helpful to Mommy as she and I grieve.
I wondered what was going on when she left on Friday with you , leaving me home alone. I didn't know I would never see you again! AHoooooooooooooo I miss you so much!
Love
Mkwaa
Posted by Mkwaa on 10/02/2007
May this candle make your eyes sparkle brighter so that everyone will know you are there now to lead the choirs. Sing boy, sing!!
Posted by Gloria on 10/02/2007
May you run free for ever now in the heavens.. with all others who are so dearly missed by thier humans..
Posted by Denny on 10/02/2007
good morning Bubbs! I am sitting here reading all these beautiful tributes and seeing these candles lit for you and I am missing you so very much!
Mkwaa and I went to the Animal Hospital today to pick up the invoice. The lovely Vet who carried you that last long block to the Animal Hospital on Friday was there, and she told me she could see how loved you were, and told me I am not to feel guilty because there was NO WAY I could have known, she reminded me you passed on gently and fast.
Mommy was spending a lot of time trying to find a beautiful urn for your ashes when this V et told me that the Crematorium provides each beloved pet with a beautiful urn. I will have to wait and see if its beautiful enough for you I guess. If not, I can still get you one.
Your friends will be gathering for a Celebration of your LIfe when we get your ashes.
Something tells me its going to be VERY difficult to sing the Travelling Song for you.
Mkwaa bless her little heart continues to look for you. You know what a little glutton she is? Well teh Vet gave her a cookiedtoday and she wanted NO part of it.
I took her out yesterday and bought her a new pink teddy bear to help ease her grief. She only wants to hang out with your teddy bear! I hope this is ok!
Rest sweet baby boy. Mommy loves and misses you more than you can imagine.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 10/03/2007
What wonderful memories you have from his life. You can tell he was very special and love surrounded him. He has a beautiful spirit. I know it is difficult when partings happen so suddenly. My heart is heavy for your loss and I send you my strength druing your time of grieving.
Posted by Heather Mik Maq's Mom on 10/03/2007
Amber, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Cody in December as well. I know he was a blessing and comfort to you in so many ways. It must be very hard to see Mkwaa lost and looking for him. I know you'll comfort each other through this sadness.
Best Wishes,
Jan
Posted by Janet Davis on 10/07/2007
Thank you so much for the candle for Adrian, I know you miss Nvwati
and one day just like me you will see him again.
Posted by rick on 10/08/2007
Nvwati,
You were a gift to all of us in this world, and I know you will be one in the next! I will surely miss your attitude! You filled our lives with beauty and love! Bless you sweetie!

Kathy
Posted by Kathy on 10/08/2007
I know the sorrow you are feeling....I lost my beloved german shepherd BO unexpectedly on 9/11/07. I still cry for him everyday. My thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless!
Posted by Jody on 10/08/2007
Good morning Bubbs! That nice Vet who did your autopsy phoned me today to tell me he took a plaster paw print of you! I can pick it up anytime! I thought that was so sweet of him.
Baby boy I miss you soooo very much. Your sister, Mkwaa is grieving so hard!!!! I made her a little deer hide medicine bag and put some of your fur in it so your wolf medicine can help her heal. She proudly wears it on her collar under YOUR bandana!!! I know you wont mind her wearing your bandana, you always told me you were beautiful enough without it on , so I am ok with her wearing it too.
Sweet sweet Nvwati. .... I hope you are playing and having fun on Rainbow Bridge. I love you so very very much and you are missed more than words can tell.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Mommy on 10/10/2007
Oh sweet Bubbs. I just got home from the Animal Hospital. Dr. Pusong created a beautiful memorial for you! He did a plaster imprint of your precious paw and put it in a nice shadow box picture frame along with a little poem and memorial for you!
I also picked up your ashes today. They came in a beautiful urn.
Your urn is now sitting on top of the fireplace that you loved to lay next to, especially on cold winter days and nights.
I ask you to please come to visit Mkwaa because she misses you sooooooooo very much and is sooooooooooooo sad.
Thank you sweetie.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Mommy on 10/10/2007
15 days......... and it feels like 15 years.......... missing you more each day sweet Bubbs.
Trying to focus on the happy times we spent together, and there were soooooooooo many of them.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 10/13/2007
Good morning Sweetheart. Mkwaa is having a lazy day today, still sleeping. I slept in today too!
Every day (several times a day) I stop by and spend a few minutes stroking your urn and smiling at your paw print memorial. I am going to take some pictures of them and put them up here on your Memorial site so others can see them too.
Today is one of those kinds of days that you would not be too interested in going outside much in. Its overcast and looks like it is going to rain soon. But when the snow comes you will be constantly on my mind because you so loved the snow! I'm sorry you didn't have one more snowfall left :(
Know you are always on my mind and your name is mentioned MANY times a day around here. Love and miss you sooooooooooo very much my precious Bubbs.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Mommy on 10/14/2007
My new friend...
When I saw you cross the bridge I knew you were special. The same angel carried us both there. And I knew we had so much in common even though I'm so small & you're so big. It is the Native connection of our Moms. Both Cherokee & very close to other realms. Rest in the sunset & play under the clouds my brother. We'll wait for our Moms together & greet them with joy.

You're a creature of great beauty & strength. You had a special mission in life & now have the rest you deserve.

I'll help watch over your family with you.

To be as beautiful on the inside as the outside is rare.
You are a jewel beyond compare.
Your love keeps all around you safe & warm.

You are loved Nvwati.

Fred
Josie
Jasper
Tammy
Posted by Fred on 10/16/2007
Its been a few days since I lit a candle for you bubbs so I am doing so today. I have been busy working on things for your Memorial and its going to be so very beautiful. You deserve to have the NICEST memorial and Mommy and Mkwaa is going to make sure it happens this way.
I love and miss you so very much my sweet sweet Nvwati.
Do you remember Kim and little Alyssa.? Well Alyssa is all grown up now but they both remember when you were first born. Kim said the women drummed and sang Braveheart for you at Drumming Circle this week, in your honour! They will be attending your Memorial and I will be sure to take lots of pictures.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Mommy on 10/19/2007
Sweetheart, yesterday was a tear jerker for me. Seeing Mkwaa so sad tore my heart apart. She loves you and misses you so much!!!! As do I but I was doing "ok" for several days, finding peace in my memories - special memories that only you and I shared.
Please show your sister you are ok so she can be less sad. Thank you Bubbs.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 10/21/2007
Good morning my precious Bubbs. I have been busy planning and organizing your Celebration of Life/Memorial Feast this coming Sunday.
Many of your friends will be here to help us celebrate your life. I just hope we do you justice.
Do you know how very much you are loved and missed? Do you know how much I loved you every single day? Did you feel my love for you as you slipped away. I felt sooooooooo powerless my sweet sweet Nvwati.
Hugs and love today and forever.
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 10/23/2007
Good morning Bubbs.
Well today your friends will gather to honour you in your Celebration of Life/Memorial Feast.
There will be laughter and tears and drumming and singing and food. Mkwaa will attend of course and she will be singing the Travelling Song for you.
You are on my mind daily as I hold you very close to my heart. Today we will gather to share stories of you and to honour you.
I miss and love you so very much sweetie.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 10/28/2007
Good morning my sweet Bubbs.
Ok so why wont you let me take any pictures of your urn or memorial? First I lost the camera which I used to take pictures of your Celebration of Life/Memorial on Sunday, then yesterday I got another camera and took about a dozen of your urn,memorial stuff etc and not one of those pictures turned out? Are you trying to tell me you aren't ready yet for me to take pictures of that stuff? Ok,. I hear you.
I love and miss you so very much my precious Nvwati.
Hugs
Mommy
Posted by Mommy on 11/01/2007
Hi Sweetie. Mommy has been very tired lately, fighting off winter bugs I guess. I finally was able to upload some pictures of your urn and Huggables urn. They are now here in your Memorial.
Man! Its cold here these past few days. I sure wish you were here to snuggle up with. I miss snuggling with you and how I long for your scent.
Baby I miss you so much.
Hugs n love today and forever.
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 11/07/2007
Sweet sweet Bubbs. Mommy is missing you so very much this morning.
I know you were there to greet Bobbi when she passed away last week. I bet she was surprised to see you waiting at the Bridge for her, eh? I was not able to reach her to let her know you had passed too.
Please gently guide her the rest of the way home to her reserve today for burial. She was always a troubled woman, so you do what you can please to help her find her way.
In so many ways I wish it were me who were there with you > I love and miss you so much sweetheart.
Love today and forever.
Mommy
XXXOOO
Posted by Amber on 11/12/2007
He was very beautiful and so loved, I know he knows he is loved and missed so much and you will be together again.To remember and talk about the beings we love, keeps them alive forever in our hearts.
Posted by Geraldine o'connell on 11/14/2007
Amber, Ebony's mom here...I just came from Critters. I did an internet search...and here I am. I will "coneinue" to pray for you every day that the grief you are experiencing over the loss of beautiful Nvwati is lifted as time slips away. I just wanted you to know how much I truly do care for you and your precious babies. My heart is with you.
Posted by Carole turner on 11/17/2007
(((Nvwati)))
Mommy is really missing you these past few days.
I love and miss you so very much my sweet "Bubbs", I miss your attitude, the way you lifted your paw if I asked if we were friends, I miss you so much sweetheart.
I hope you are having fun at Rainbow Bridge with all your new friends.
Hugs today and forever
Mommy
XXXXOOOO
Posted by Amber on 11/20/2007
Nvwati, today mommy is hurting so much because I miss you so very much sweetie.
Posted by Amber on 11/26/2007
Sweet Nvwati
As I sit here watching the snow gently falling from the sky, I remember how you so loved the winter. I hope it snows at Rainbow Bridge for you my sweet boy.
Love today and forever
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 12/01/2007
My sweet sweet Nvwati....... It has been 11 weeks today that you so suddenly left me to go play at Rainbow Bridge.
Sweetie I love and miss you soooooooooo very much!
Hugs and love
today and forever
Mommy
XXX000
Posted by Amber on 12/07/2007
Missing you so much today my sweet Nvwati. With the holidays just around the corner it just doesn't seem right that life goes on without you in it on a physical level.
You will always remain within my heart.
Know how much you are loved and missed my sweet sweet boy.
Hugs and love today tomorrow and forever.
Mommy
XXXOOO
Posted by Amber on 12/11/2007
My dear sweet Nvwati
The days go into weeks and now into months since you left me and daily I find myself thinking of you, longing for one more day with you.
Know how very much you are loved and missed sweetie.
Hugs today tomorrow and forever
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 12/18/2007
Amber
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Nvwati. What a beautiful furbaby. i know the years you spent together
you made some wonderful memories. Keep them close to your heart. And remember you gave Nvwati the best life he could ever ask for. my he rest in peace
Debbie
Posted by Debbie on 12/18/2007
My sweet precious Bubbs. Christmas is just a few days away and my heart is not in the spirit of the holidays at all this year. There is no tree.. no decorations except for a few I put on the fireplace, and no wrapped gifts.
It seems so useless to pretend. It won't be the same without you singing Gramma got Run Over by a Reindeer this year, useless without you running to the tree and trying to snatch up as many gifts as you can to open at one time, knowing your sister Mkwaa doesnt realize yet there are gifts inside packages for her too!
No doggie gift exchange for your friends at Doggie Park...
I miss you so very much sweetie.
I hope there is snow for you at Rainbow Bridge.
Hugs today tomorrow and forever
Mommy
Posted by Amber on 12/22/2007
We thank you for your words and support since we lost Jake. We spend time together looking and crying at Nvwati's website. It is amazing how much we can appreciate true happiness during such tough times. Please know we send you and your beloved pups healing energy and love.
Posted by Rachel and Jay on 01/15/2008