Toby

Toby:

Alias: Obie, TobTob, Woo, Bubba,

He was so special he answered to all of his names.  From the moment I saw Tobys picture on the Hopalong Rescue page with his floppy ears I fell in love. My Dad had just died from Cancer and we were moving to his house in Antioch.  What a great idea, I thought,  I will get Jeff a dog for the move, since he didnt want to move and leave his friends, he could have a dog to take care of.  How did I know he would be my heart, he was my buddy, and my boy. He went to puppy classes that he didnt do to well in. Toby was just Toby. He eventually learned and was just starting to settle down. Toby was taken from us much, much too soon by Lymphoma Toby was ALL puppy.  I cant tell you how many shoes we lost to his little teeth. Toby slept in the bed with me until he got too big and literally knocked me out the bed. Toby loved to go on walks. He would walk and walk as far as I wanted to go. He loved the dog park. He loved to play. About a year ago I got bailey, ironically to keep Toby company. She did not like Toby at first, but he was patient with her. Slowly he would sit next to her his paw a little closer each time. When she would growl he would back up and then do it again later. Next thing I know they are inseparable.  Toby loved to swim. He swam with Jeff for the last time yesterday. He wasnt feeling wellbut the last thing he did was something he loved to do.

 

Toby was such a presence in our house. He wasnt just a dog, he was apart of our family and there is a big, big part missing right now. Bailey is going from room to room whining and looking for him. She has gone out to the kennel in the back yard and went to his dog house and looked inside for him. She misses him. She and I went on our first walk tonight with out himA lot of people can not understand the feelings there are for a pet. When you take care of something ever daythey become so much apart of your life. My thoughts were always on taking care of my babies. Was it too hot outside? Was it too cold outside? What do I do if I get home late? What do I do if I am spending the night? I always had to make sure he (they) were taken care of.  My family is not big dog lovers but Toby made his way into their hearts. My mom would even call and ask to speak to him on the phone. It was a big joke with usbut he would sit and listen when my mom would call his name.

 

Today I had to put my best friend to sleep. I held him and kissed his forehead and told him, Thats mamas boy like I always did.  He licked me all over my face as if to say GOODBYE they gave him the shot and I held him as his heart took its one last beatIf you have a pet, whether it is a dog, cat, bird, turtle, fishwhatever, if you love it hold it, Okay well maybe not the fish (smile), but tell them you love thembecause tonight when I call bailey in to my room for bedshe will come but Toby wont be with herand I wont be able to kiss his forehead goodnight and tell him I love him.so you tell yours in Tobys memory and in his honor because he was very, very much loved.

Our whole family loved himhe was not only apart of our family but he was apart of our hearts. He will be missed dearly, especially by me.

 

WE WILL MISS YOU MY BOY. WE DIDNT HAVE YOU LONG ENOUGH.

 

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
Ill be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
Ill be missing you

 

 

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I can't stop crying right now! I never got to meet Toby but I guess it wasn't necessary to already miss him like you do. I'm sure he was a great buddy! He is in a good place right now Theresa and the memories you have of him will live on forever I'm certain. RIP Toby!
Posted by CJ on 06/24/2008
Theresa,
Can you imagine...I'm at a loss for words! Yeah thats a new one. Toby will be missed dearly in our home. He was a great spirit and friend, you did the right thing...again the hard stuff...to help a friend not suffer. He knew you were there and he knew he was loved and still does. It is the ones that we leave behind here on earth that suffer. I believe this with every fiber, it is they that pass on that find the peace. To those on the other side. It is only a moment until we are taken as well and they great us with open arms...or paws!!! giggle. Thank you for allowing me to be with you and your family, you all are precious to me!
My thougths and prayers are present always.
jackie
Posted by Jackie on 06/24/2008
I seen your story on Craigslist the first time you posted that he was sick and I was so touched by the story and how he knew he was momma's boy. God bless you, your family, and sweet Bailey. I hope Toby shows his presence once in a while to let you know he hasn't forgotten of the one who made his last years so dear. Thank you for sharing your story. Stay strong.
Posted by Christina on 06/24/2008
Hi Theresa: I just received your e-mail about Toby. I'm glad to know that he is at rest and no longer in pain. A greater pain is for someone in pain to watch their loves "hopeless" suffer in silence for them. He only knew joy from you and the people around him and for him to detect a different aurora was harder on him than you. Nothing can every replace a "physical" love lost, but memorials of the joy and happiness they brought into your life makes life every lasting. Don't hold on to what was, delight in what is going to be because of it. Some people go through their entire life without knowing the joy of true love whether it is from a pet or other human being. Just think, you've known both. Always remember, I'm only a phone call away. Love ya, Ella
Posted by Ella on 06/24/2008
hi, I was just reading your post on craigslist and I can't stop crying. I am so sorry about TOBY but I know it was the best thing for him. to end his SUFFERING....I have 3 pomeranians at home and they are my BABIES.... I know how you, your son, and bailey is feeling right now. I can just imagine the pain that you experienced but just remember that TOBY is now happy and he is very thankful for what you did for him. he can now run and live freely w/o the pain that he felt for that cancer. and I am so sure that TOBY's spirit will always be w/ your family to protect and guide you. He was a lovely and a good looking guy. time will come that you can move on. just mourn him for awhile coz you deserve it. god bless you and your family. be strong for your son and bailey... take care.
Posted by irene on 06/24/2008
I cried huge tears as I read your story about Toby. There are good people, people who love and understand pets. I am one such person, having had the same experience you are now going through just a year ago. IT HURTS and there's no getting around that. I imagine my beloved Imani is with my dad and my other animals waiting for me. I hope you too believe you will one day be reuinited with all your loved ones, and the 4-legged ones will come running to meet you just as they did while they were here. I'm so sorry for your loss. Yes, the dogs left behind grieve as strong as their owners. Give Bailey extra love and time to express herself. When you can, go out and give another waiting dog your love. Believe me it helps the grief to subside for both animal and human. I held my baby in my arms while she took her last breath, and it nearly killed me. God's blessings to you.
Posted by Michelle Fracis on 06/24/2008
Just read your post. I feel your pain I had to put my lab to sleep 2 years ago. only thing that keep me going was I was good to her I'm sure you were too. so sorry for your loss God Bless and kind regards
Posted by Judy Wedge on 06/24/2008
Theresa,
Through your words, I know Toby. I know all the teethprints and gnaw marks in your shoes that he left you. I know the sloppy, happy, wonderful wet kisses all over your face from him. I know the warmth of his body and the weight of his body on your bed, sleeping next to you at night. I know all these things, because not only did you give your love to him, you gave a part of him to us. I wish I could have patted his head and given him a huge hug. I'm sorry he's not here with you now. But while he was here, you gave him all the love he needed. He was loved. And so are you.
Posted by Mary Glenn on 06/24/2008
Ok...you had to add the song :( I don't have enough kleenex to get thru the song, so I had to mute it. I'm sending you all lots and lots of hugs!! It was so fast, I thought you'd have more time with him. Only time can help the grief, but he's always going to be alive in your heart. With all my love and prayers, Theresa
Posted by Theresa on 06/26/2008